The past comes back to bite you...

Most of you know that I was engaged when I was 20 years old to a wonderful man from South Africa. I just found today that he is getting married, obviously not to me...and he's getting married on Saturday. I thought I had moved on, but deep down I guess I always thought we would end up together. It's been forever since we've even talked on the phone, but he was single and so am I and I guess I thought it was just a matter of time (and getting us on the same continent). Of course there is the whole, why her and not me, but I try to believe that God has a plan. That everything that happens in our lives, happens for a reason even if we cannot see the reason. I wish him the best, I really do. He deserves happiness and I don't even know her to have an opinion (although a country music song tells me I can hate her and think of a reason later lol). But my heart is afraid and is grieving for something I lost 8 years ago. I never thought this ex would be the one to come back and cause me yet more pain.